Urgh...

#thatwashellandihopeitneverhappensagain #howaplaylistsavedmyass

So if you are either my dad or my dear Helir, you already know the basics of this story.

I'll put it fairly simply. I was supposed to meet up with one of my mental health people today, yeah? I do pretty much every friday, it's to help with my anxiety and get me out of the house and stuff. So, I get the bus and get to the place where we're supposed to meet. I have very little credit and whatnot, but I check through my texts //of which I had none when I left the house, you must understand// and find that I have one dated yesterday, saying that we were supposed to meet then instead of today. Thinking back, of course that was the case. But that leaves me a twenty minute bus ride away from home and starting to panic to all hell. But, I've got a bag full of things I need to dump in charity shops and we have a number of things we need around the house. As summer is just around the corner, we're getting way too many flies; my guinea pigs are out of dry food; the hamsters are too; and a few other things.

I'm already stressed out to all hell because if we can't get this house cleaned up, the council could very well chuck us out.

Now, I've brought it up several times as most of you who actually read these journals will know; but this particular playlist is the only one I have downloaded. Without that playlist, I don't bloody care I'd have had things to do, I'd have gotten the first bus back home. But, I did happen to have that playlist with me.

So, I knock up the volume, pretty much constantly telling me that I can do this, and proceed to spend the next two hours {?} getting everything we need. Alone.

I have not done an outing requiring a bus journey alone for several months. Every other time in recent months, if I've taken the bus alone, I've met up with people whilst I was out. This was all alone.  I don't think I was quite ready for the stress overload but whatever. I handled it. I'm not quite I could have without having that playlist. So yes. Yay for fictional wrestling OC themes, you've saved my ass today.

I'll probably recognise this as some kind of an achievement once I've calmed the fuck down again.

Anyway; I'll use this as an opportunity to ask again if anyone has any wrestling OC themes they'd be willing to donate. You don't need to list them all; if they're written down somewhere in your gallery, just say, I'll gladly dig them out and add them myself. It's just... this playlist is hugely comforting, I don't think I can say it enough. Here's a link again if anyone wants it.

And finally; these fab contests are open.

...I'm probably gonna do some drawing or something now to calm myself down.